Yup, that pretty much sums up my mood lately. I have nothing to update. He still "doesn't know what he wants." I'm still stressed. He cut off contact with her for a little bit but has since resumed the occasional text and calls. I came home yesterday after grocery shopping. The phone rang, my house phone. She fucking called the house then didn't even have the balls to say anything. Just silence. Coward. He swears on everything that he's not having an affair, etc, but then what. I went off on him. Two and half weeks of anger spewed out of me. Now I'm left feeling numb and completely unsure of what the future holds.
You know, it's crazy. I still love him. I still can't imagine my life without him. I can't give up. I can't throw in the towel. We at least need to try and try everything. If there is still unhappiness then, well then we'll talk further. But we owe it to ourselves, to our kids, to try at the very least.
I just wish I could tell him to snap out of this and wake up. I wish it was that easy.
She called the bloody house phone? That's crazy. She's trying to stir shit up between you two. You do owe it to yourself to try as much as you want to. I hope you make some kind of progress. xxx
ReplyDelete