I'm heading home in a few days. I'm very much looking forward to it. There hasn't been any major improvements since I last wrote, but I'm looking forward to getting back to my "normal" life. As nice as its been to visit with my mom, it's not home. There was quite a rough patch on Tuesday night. A bit of a low point. No sense in me rehashing it cause, quite frankly, I don't really want to think about it. It's looked up since then. I'm not really sure what to expect when I do go back home. I still don't know if he wants to really try at us. Shit, I don't know if he knows.
In Baby L news, Baby L has been able to give kisses on demand for about a month now. In the past few days, she's been giving me spontaneous, random, just cause kisses which melt my heart. Last night though, she added some tongue. Gotta put a stop on that. Those ones aren't quite as heart melting as her other ones.
Oh dear, I didn't realise any of this was happening :( I'm sorry you are going through this. Big, big, big, big hugs!!!
ReplyDeleteI hope that when you do go home things start looking up.
Thinking of you and Baby L.
Remember if you ever need to talk I'm here. Irrational as it is (as I didn't even know you had a blog till yesterday!) I feel bad for not knowing and not being there for you...
Thanks Nay. I didn't want to say I started a blog in fb cause well, wanted somewhere to vent without family reading. Also, not much of his or my family knows what's going on, so that was another reason to keep it unannounced.
DeleteShit, I hope things start looking up. I'm not sure how much more I can take. It's been an exhausting month and not a good way to start 2012.