So.... Sigh. He swore up and down that they were just friends. That there was nothing physical. I found out today she gave him a Xmas gift. Fucking bitch. He's cut off all contact with her since Saturday, the phone records show that.
We live in silence next to each other. He doesn't talk to me or look at me.
We went to a marriage counselor today. I went in with the hope I have some light shed on the situation or the knowledge that we were going to begin to work on us. I left with neither of those things and I now know that he isn't sure if he wants to stay or go. I never, ever in my life thought I'd be questioning the state of my marriage. The three things that he named as our problems, they all have solutions. It makes this whole situation harder to grasp. I love him so much and I cannot imagine my life without him. I do not want to do that to the two older kids (my step kids). It would devastate them. I just don't see this being the end to everything.
I'm going to fight. Fight for my marriage, for us. I'm not going to give up. I just don't know what to do cause it seems like he's given up.
That's a good and positive sign that he cut all communication with her. But she gave him a Christmas present. What a truly horrible person she is!
ReplyDeleteHow are things lately? Is he beginning to talk to you, or is he still not talking?
I'm glad you're gonna stay and fight for your marriage.
I hope the new year has given him some fight so you can work things out. That the things all have solutions is at least positive. That he's stopped all contact with her is also positive and the fact that you still love him so much and are willing to fight is great - I hope he can reciprocate and that 2012 does end up to be a good year.
ReplyDeleteI feel it will.
Happy New Year
xxx